While I was in the shower this evening, I contemplated the question of why some females are more masculine and some are more feminine. This arose from an earlier discussion with a friend on me being more like a guy than a girl. This revelation is not new. My grandma says the same thing. However, it is very sad to know that people think of me in that manner. To the extent that on the way home on the NEL, I was staring at my reflection and wondering if I looked like a transvestite or a drag queen. Anyway, giving further thought to this question, I came to the conclusion that it is due to the notion of "girl power" (aka the Spice Girls) in the era in which I was maturing, and the portrayal of strong professional women on TV in the 1980s-now. Why is it then that I turn out to be more masculine when you can be a professional woman and be feminine? This perhaps lies in the gender stereotypes that prevail in society. Traditional notions of males being stronger, more powerful, and more aggressive is often equated with success in life, and females are often presented as being weak and submissive. This yearning to be successful in life coupled with the excessive male influence and strong/aggressive female influence that I have had in my growing years have made me thus. This strong affinity to strength and power has isolated me from the other end of the continuum which many females strive to be or are currently at. The extreme femininity often translates into instant attraction of the male species like bees to honey, and results in manipulation of the gender species that use their other "brain" to think. This prey then falls head over heels, gets hurt, and end up manipulating the other innocent females, and the vicious cycle continues.

Just as I was thinking how brilliant my topic tonight is...I slipped in the shower and almost fell. :P