What a stressful day!

Just came back from dinner at my friend's house. It was a fun-filled dinner with many tiny tots running around. His nieces and nephews are so cute and prior to last Friday, I would have said that it makes me want to have children as well. But memories of screaming children have permanently etched in my head a fear and a realization of the responsibilities of owning a cute kid.

Prior to the dinner was a whole string of stressful events, beginning from early this afternoon. The main source of stress lies in a certain someone who, waking up to an empty dining table (no breakfast served), got into a bad mood and started throwing tantrums at everyone around. Granted, everyone has their bad days, but if power lies in your hands, please use it responsibly. A small fry like me will never cause as much pain as someone with power. If this is a workplace, it will be called supervisor abuse.

The stressful events also made me rethink the concept of marriage. Seriously, do I want to get married when marriage becomes so stressful? Are there marriages where men actually allow women more freedom and don't need them at their beck and call? Are there men who are MAN enough to do that? My mother asked me today, why do men always need women when women do not need men that much? I cited my other friend as an example. He is intending to live out a life of celibacy and no, he's not a staunch Christian who has gay inclinations. There are good men out there, we believe, but they are either 1) taken, 2) boring, 3) intending to remain single, and 4) interested only in pretty women. Basically, ugly girls finish last. *just kidding and no offense meant* Whatever it is, life is pretty much stagnant for now. Which is good because I need time and space to work out my priorities in life and the route that I want to take.

Confusion in life is just a phase...confusion in life is just a phase...confusion in life is just a phase...