It's time I take a rest, having stayed up till 3am for the past few nights, and being awoken at 8+. Now, my nose is killing me, looking pretty much like Rudolph and face aching so badly from sniffling too much. It's a sad day even though I was out the whole day. Christmas doesn't seem like Christmas this year, with Chinese New Year decorations and CNY clothes already on display. Friends have also seemed to take a permanent leave of absence from me, moving on with their lives, while I'm stuck in a black hole called NUS. How is it possible that I'll actually be able to complete another 2 years there? And everything around me seems to make me feel even more depressed. Everyone seems to be looking good, except me. Something's wrong with me. Plastic surgery, I won't consider. But yet there doesn't seem to be anything else that I can do. I'm fed up with life. Fed up with my friends. What are friends for if they are never there? Busy with work, busy with thesis, busy with new bfs.. WTF. I'm pissed. I don't matter anymore. I think I'm just going to go away from everyone. Hate everyone. Looks like I was blind to have made such "friends".