Counting down...

12 hours to go before the start of my last paper for QE. Hopefully I will pass the exam. I acknowledge that this has been a great learning experience for me, but I really really do not wish to re-take the exam. The self-imposed imprisonment is too great for a free soul like mine, and the perfectionist in me is always feeling stressed at not being able to sit for the exam knowing everything. In my OB paper, I "slammed" the OB field for their narrow-minded focus on mainstream topics and US-based reward system for academics - too much focus on pubs, too little rewards and recognition given to papers with great practical implications. This is despite knowing that the person marking my paper tends toward the mainstream. Oh well, my life is in God's hands. Perhaps I'm not meant to be an academic. My talents may lie beyond. More and more so I believe that. But the stubbornness in me refuses to give it up. A denial of the fact that "I cannot do something that other people can do". Perfectionism strikes again.

Now, I'm planning what to do after my paper. Heh. This is the fun part. Here's a list:
(1) Maple
(2) Shopping
(3) Gym + Swimming
(4) Reading up on church history
(5) Spring cleaning
(6) Reading my long-awaited fashion mags
(7) Reading my novels
(8) Reading business books
(9) Learning to use my new ipod
(10) Interview transcribing
(11) Scouting for male interviewees
(12) Recharging my life zzz

YAY! I SIMPLY CANNOT WAIT..............................................